Life

Ah, blogging, how I’ve missed you!  I didn’t realize just how therapeutic this was for me until I quit doing it.  It’s a great distraction, and the support of all your fabulous people doesn’t hurt, either!

I didn’t mean to be gone for so long, but just about three weeks ago we got the official word that my mom’s treatment isn’t working, so they are switching her to palliative care.  Three months.  I’m figuring it out as I go, but it all seems overwhelming, and confusing, and of course, upsetting. 

My aunt said something the other day that made me really stop and think.  “To feel normal, you have to do normal things.”  How true is that?  I am sad about my mom, but avoiding blogging, social interaction in general, isn’t going to fix things – it only serves to alienate me from a great source of support.

So today, I will do normal things. 

I’ve changed my routine a bit, in an effort to at feel my best in a time when I can use all the strength I can get.  Mornings have become smoothies, because I always feel my best when I start my day that way. 

Fruit doesn’t hold me over all morning on its own, but with the addition of some Greek yogurt, and Prairie Naturals Lean Whey Protein Powder, it keeps me full for hours.

Lunch today was yummy veggies and Greek yogurt and fresh dill dip, and half a bagel with cream cheese.

{Nothing yummier than zucchini – yummy!}

I’m a “stress baker” so my house has been full of baked goods – from cookies, to muffins, to bread – for days.  I bake, and then I give it all away. A step in the right direction!

{Banana Chocolate Chip Loaf, a variation of Cosmic Cookies, and Raisin Bars}

I actually kept one loaf of the fat free/low sugar banana bread, but it’s in the freezer.  I’m digging it out next week when the cookies have all been eaten in work and school lunches. 

The cookies were SO good, and I’ll post my variation of the recipe tomorrow.  This is a must-try!

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Now, so you don’t think I’m avoiding the topic, I have to say that my eating hasn’t been too bad.  I have been able to keep myself in check, despite a lot of meals on the run, dinners out and not much planning.  I haven’t gained anything, but I’m stuck at a disappointing 324. 

The next month I don’t want to make unreasonable goals, because I know it will be a tough month.  I want to make it through the next month in one piece.  As many fruits and vegetables as I can manage, and no bingeing – if I can handle that, I know I’m on the right track.

June is also the month where I tackle one of my biggest fears – driving.  I’m sure most of you can’t imagine why I’d be afraid of driving, but I am. Terrified.  So, this month, I make the first step towards driving, going to get my Learner’s.  Ugh. 

What unreasonable fears do you have?